What am I supposed to do when there's no one to turn to? How am I supposed to deal when I'm hurting more than I can tolerate? Tell me, how am I able to calm myself down enough to stop crying when there's still so much inside me? I need to be comforted. I need to be held. I need to be told that I'm not crazy. I'm not being irrational. That this fear is real. But how can I go to anyone? Especially right now.

Jamie, I wish I could see you.